Smelling the Flowers Along the way

November Already

2010-11-07T20:05:00.000-08:00

I was trying my best to post on this gratitude blog and learn and grow in gratitude and then a bomb went off in our lives. Actually a few but were dealing and I still have much to be grateful for.

Neil's mom fell and broke her hip for the second time. There was one night she almost left us. It was horrible and yet for her maybe it would be the best. She has a long road ahead to healing and her mind is getting worse. Alzheimers is a slow death. It is horrible. It robs you of the person who once was. It is sad for the person who has it and for those who need that person and it's like there not them. There not there.

She is now in a rehabilitation facility which is also a long term care facility. It's a nice place with nice people. But I don't like it. I don't like her being there. It's sad. I know she hates it. But she has to be a little better before she can come home. Then when she comes home. There are a lot of questions. How to care for her. How to communicate with family to get everyone on the same page and communicating. Not a strength in the Warner family.

I love her and I miss her. I want her back the real her. I need her to talk to me. Well she mostly listens. She is a great listener. I need her to help me with the handeling of my life, with the questions of what to do and how to do it. I need to know what to do for her and what my part is. I was listening to an old song by Michael McClean. "My Part". I always have this question in my life. But with this situation with Neil's mom it really is What is my Part? It's hard. I love her. How do I show that. How do I handle the situations I am in with the family.

Neil's mom was in the hospital and had just had her surgery. We had just gotten home from the hospital and I got a phone call from Aaron. He was hurt and needed help right away. I left immediately and then his friends called and said they couldn't wait they were taking him to the hospital.

Aaron had been playing flag football and BYU and had fallen and hurt his knee. I met up with them at the emergency room. They took exrays and gave him some medicine and sent us on our way. The ER doc thought maybe a torn miniscus but nothing too bad. He didn't know anything. It took forever and we do not like UVRMC at all.

Aaron came home with us and we waited until monday to get in for the MRI and the doctor. We got the results and the results were a severe injury. Torn, ACL, LCL, miniscus, ligaments down both sides of his leg, a bruised fractured bone, and nerve damage in his foot. The nerve damage is the most scary of all the injury. We don't know what will happen for ure but it may be permanent. Aaron has been so upset. His life is sports. He loves to be active. He has surgery on Wednesday. I am hoping and praying that it will all work out.

November is here a month to be thankful for our blessings. I am blessed. I am grateful that it is not worse. It could be so much worse. As hard as it is. It could be worse. I am grateful for my blessings for my family.

August 13, 2010

2010-08-14T20:26:00.000-07:00

1. That nothing bad happened today. It being friday the 13th.
2. Date with Neil and a long talk. Love talking to Neil about everything and anything.
3. Spending time with Grandma. Love that lady so much.
4. Laundry is all done. All done probably for a minute. I even folded the sock in the basket woot woot!

August 11, 2010

2010-08-12T13:26:00.000-07:00

1. The boys finally got home. What a long time trying to get home. Three days at the airport was no fun for them. So glad there home safe and sound.
2. I was asked to play Bunco. Didn't get to go because I had to pick up the boys from the airport. But it was niced to be asked.
3. Lunch with Suzanne.
4. Dinner with Aaron talking about their trip. They had to take different flights so we had to wait for Neil.

August 10, 2010

2010-08-10T20:27:00.000-07:00

1. Starting to get caught up at work.
2. My sister Sheila called.
3. The boys still haven't gotten on a flight but they are making the most of it. Glad there safe.
4. Sammy for working on packets.
5. A hot bath with bubbles. There is nothing more theraputic then a hot bath. Love them.

August 9,2010

2010-08-09T18:17:00.000-07:00

1. That I could help Neil's mom today. She needed her licensed renewed. It was a long three day process but I was so glad to be able to help her.
2. So glad I have had her in my life for the last 25 years. She is an amazing lady. It is hard. Alzheimers is a horrible horrible thing. I feel like we are losing her slowly each day.
3. Sammy for helping with the Wall of Service
4. Shylo at work. She helps me so much and I am grateful.
5. Kinsey is working on her and enjoying her new independence and trying to learn and grow. She is amazing and I can't wait to see her go through the journey of life and see the wonderful things she will do.

August 8, 2010

2010-08-08T20:45:00.000-07:00

1. Sammy's help with The Wall of Service.
2. So glad Aaron and Neil got to have a fathers and son trip to Wisconsin.
3. A clean house
4. Sammy for helping clean and having a good attitude. Now if she can just get her room done.
5. Kinsey for writing nice things to Neil on facebook. I want our family to be close.

August 7, 2010

2010-08-08T07:32:00.000-07:00

1. Breakfast with Grandma.
2. Sammy helped so much today and had a good attitude.
3. Cleaning the carpets and deep cleaning. Feels so good.
4. That the boys are in Wisconsin and having a great time.
5. Kinsey brought me over a watermelon she picked out from work.

Feb 7 - 10, 2010

2010-02-10T20:20:00.000-08:00

1. Family and Fun at the Super Bowl party.
2. Movie with Sammy. Love spending time with her.
3. Neil- He has been sick and was so appreciative and full of love.
4. Home made pizza
5. Chocolate Strawberies.
6. Losing 5 pounds during my first week of my diet.
7. Puppy kisses.

February 2-6, 2010

2010-02-06T19:39:00.000-08:00

1. Neil-He got my sickness and he has been so sick. It's hard to see him this way. I love him so much.
2. Lunch with Grandma.
3. A date with Sammy
4. Hugs from Aaron.
5. The dogs who cuddle and love me most.
6. Catching up at work.
7. Karen for talking to me and helping me see through different eyes.
8. Sheila for understanding and calling me.
9. People who showed concern.
10. Rea- She is going through a lot and is a good example.

February 1, 2009

2010-02-01T21:21:00.000-08:00

1. Neil's mom- I love her so much. She is suffering with Alzheimers and it is so hard and so sad.

2. Getting an unexpected thank you card and a gift certificate to Cafe Rio.

3. Kinsey smile- I don't always get to see her smile. It is beautiful

4. Aaron moved home- He will miss being with "the Crew" but I am glad to have him home again.

5. Getting a lot done at work today.

January

2010-02-01T07:48:00.000-08:00

So far behind! I want to write in this every day! January was a good month and a month filled with sickness. I am so grateful for good health! I was sick for at least two weeks of January. I turned 43. I am getting old. Like most months there are good things and things that you wish wouldn't happen or that you wouldn't have to deal with. But overall so happy and so grateful.
Here are a few of my grateful things for January.

1. Neil- He always treats me so good for my birthday
2. Going to Vegas with my fella
3. Health
4. Being sick and having my family take care of me.
5. A new year
6. Kinsey and Aaron are both going to UVU.
7. Sammy has good friends.
8. Tova and the little man.
9. Birthday wishes from unepected places.
10. A new commitment to health.

Flower of the Day

2009-11-12T11:34:00.000-08:00

Today I am grateful for...

Good Health

Candles that smell like the holidays

Music that fills my soul and makes me feel...

Today's Flower's

2009-11-11T17:13:00.000-08:00

It's been a long while since I posted what I am grateful for. It helps so much in life to be able to recognize our blessings. They are so many each and every day. I am recommitting myself to add to my flowers every day.

I want to list the things I have been grateful for over the last several months I have missed.

Going to Cancun Mexico with my family. We had so much fun!
Going to Jamaica with my best friend for our 23rd wedding Anniversary.
Kinsey moving home so she can go to school.
The Second Chance of Utah benefit concert for Hannah Laursen.
Having J.R. Richards perform at the concert. Lots of memories made.
For being blessed with good health and a loving family.

I am going to try and write something each day.

Todays Flowers

2009-05-04T14:28:00.000-07:00

Grateful for...

Sammy being able to go to Hawaii.

The boys spending time together on a lizard trip. I love that their best friends.

Kinsey being able to move out and enjoy being young. I worry but am so happy for her to.

Today...

2009-04-30T14:31:00.000-07:00

It has been a busy week and I haven't posted each day. That is my goal to post something I am grateful for each day.

This weeks flowers...

Aaron: he is such an awesome man. He finish his first semester of college this week. I am proud of him. He was such a helper this week. He mowed the lawn even though his allergys are in full force. Ahh he is so sick. His eyes are swollen and he can't breathe. Today he was really sick. I made him a doctors appointment. He was so sweet he was like no we don't need to spend the money I will be ok. Even though he was sick he vacummed the whole house. Tykie what would I do withou you?

Sammy: Sammy has been in Hawaii. I miss her she is my sunshine.

Kineys: Is so excited to move out. I am happy for her. I am also sad...for me... I am old. I am no longer the mother who can tell her what to do. She is now an adult. How do I let go? How do I not worry? I love you Special and wish you were still two years old with big bows on your head and curly hair who talked with an accent and said the sweetest things. Time goes by too fast!

I am grateful for life for breathing and spring flowers and love.

Mondays

2009-04-27T15:04:00.000-07:00

Mondays are hard sometimes. It means the begining of a work week and an end to the weekend. It means taking the focus off from home and having to think about work. I hope for my girls that they can be stay at home moms. I wish I could have been at home more with my children.
Although... I am grateful for Neil and I being a team and parenting together. We were lucky to work our schedules so that we were the only one's watching our kids. Occasionally grandma but we had no day care.

Today I am grateful for a dirty house. Strange I know but it just meant we had a good Sunday. Why do we clean on Saturday. That makes no sense to me it just gets a mess again on Sunday. I need to re-think my cleaning day.

Well off to clean the dirty house. Oh it's bad.

Grateful for...

2009-04-26T14:08:00.000-07:00

Saturday I helped with the Child Abuse Awareness 5K run. It was an early morning for a Saturday but rewarding. It feels good to give service.

I hurried home and got ready and we went to an authentic italian restaraunt and had real italian pizza. Much different than the American version. It was pretty good. Then we went to see Wicked. It was fabulous. I was so grateful we got to go to see Wicked. Neil even liked it. It is a cleaver and well written play.

It has been a few really good days in a row. I am feeling blessed and I am taking the time to realize my blessings. I am smelling the flowers along the way.

I taught my primary class today. The kids are so cute. I have one little girl who has downs and one little boy who is so active. It is fun but challenging to keep them ingaged in the lesson. It has been awhile since I have been in Primary. I need to regain some skills.

I am trying to let in the light. I have so much to be grateful for. I want to really feel it!

Blessings

2009-04-24T19:33:00.000-07:00

Today I am grateful to be able to forgive to have love pouring from my heart and feeling a fresh start. I am grateful for the opportunity to talk. To express (or try to) my feelings.

Today was a good day. I walked the trail for the 5K child abuse run. I had a long lunch talk with a lost friend who I hope is found again.

I got to see Aaron and McKinsey play softball. Aaron gave me a ride home from the game because Neil had to go to work. We had a great talk and a wonderful dinner. I love my son. He knows my heart and loves me and helps me so much with his positive attitude and love.

I love these shirts. So Aaron.

Sammy is in Hawaii...she sent me a text of the view from her hotel. Spectacular view. I am so happy she is able to be their and have a wonderful vacation. Miss you Sam.

Today's Flower

2009-04-23T12:57:00.000-07:00

Todays Flower...

Lunch with McKinsey

Kinsey you are beautiful and so very special. I am so proud of the woman you are becoming. You have grown so much and I admire your determination and your desire to be the kind of person who helps others, who cares, who notices the small and important things.

I loved our talk today and just being with you.

You will be moving out soon. I will miss you. I am happy for you to explore and enjoy life. You deserve the best.